Green Grass & Blue Skies

Green grass and blue skies - that is where my focus is right now. I’ve been thinking about my ex-boyfriend a bit much and every time I start to think about him I say “Green grass, blue skies” to take my mind off him.

Let me explain, when I say these words it reminds me that some day I will have “green grass” - a relationship that grows and flourishes and “blue skies” - a relationship where I’m happy most of the time, not longing to see the guy I like. Of course, just saying the words, in my mind, a few times breaks the obsession of thinking of what I wished could have been.

I’m not really a positive person. I’ve had too much disappointment in my life to believe that things actually work out. Well …. I guess I’ve had great success in my work life, with friends, and where I live. I’ve just seen a lot of guys come and go and that is the thing I want the most. I want ONE person to be my close friend and lover and to create a life together. I look forward to the normal give-and-take in a relationship and the confidence that we are both committed to being in each other’s world.

I guess the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. I’d just like to try the other side of the fence for a while.